Ten years ago I met my best friend and with her came her older brother brother, we were a year apart. We constantly picked on each other for no apparent reason up until high school. We always had classes together, yet for three years we never said more than "can I borrow a pencil," to each other. Up until prom of junior year, he asked me if I would go with him but I turned him down thinking it was something his friends had put him up to. That is until my friends started telling me they heard he'd been serious and was hurt that I said no. I simply pushed it aside and stayed with my instincts. He avoided me in every way possible for the next year. Up until I graduated then one day I received a sudden invite in the mail to a Summer party he was having. I went and avoided him as best as I could, I admit I started feeling attracted to him, but I wasn't sure if it was simply because I thought there was a possibility he was into me or because I actually was. He managed to catch up with me at the end though as I was leaving he was acting very flustered and told me "thank you for coming it was very nice to get to see you again, it's been a while." I smiled and politely thanked him for inviting me and left. The feelings subsided too.

I'd recently broken up with a friend of mine, we dated very briefly and I honestly never considered it much of a relationship, but I did care a lot about him and he made me feel happy, but some things happened and I decided it was best to end the relationship before we damaged the friendship further. So I thought that may have been part of what was causing my attraction, simply a rebound brought on by the loneliness.

However the Summer passed and towards the end his sister invited me to go to the movies with her, he tagged along and insisted that he sit next to me. He was very polite and very sweet and genuinely fun to spend time with. I wasn't sure if I was attracted to him though. A few weeks later he transfered colleges and moved a whole state away and I never got the chance to say goodbye. I haven't seen him since, but my feelings for him have been on and off and confusing. I'm not sure if they're simply there because I'm lonely or if I really am falling for him. Help?