Call your gynecologist RIGHT NOW, and tell him/her: you believe you have post-partum depression and/or anxiety; you're experiencing a crisis; you need to see him/her TODAY. You and your bf cannot "work through" post-partum depression/anxiety - it's a chemical imbalance, and you very likely need medication to feel better. It's also a serious illness - so you need treatment immediately. Close your laptop now, honey, and call your doctor.

I would call your primary care doctor and let them know you need an appointment ASAP. I would tell her how you are feeling, I mean tell her everything. Don't feel embarrassed because there is nothing to be embarrassed about. I would also look into seeing a therapist, you could even ask your doctor for some names of psychologists in your area. Good luck and please don't put this off thinking it will go away.

Hang in there. It sounds like you are suffering from Post Partum Depression. My life was going fine and out of the blue, I had an absolute break. I guess it was finally time to deal with everything from my past that I had been stuffing deep down inside of me.

PLEASE reach out and get help. There are some wonderful people out there. I just turned 30 last month and I completely understand what you are going through. I have just started counseling. This is something that I should have done years ago.

Hang in there.

I agree with the ladies above. My sister suffered from severe post-partum depression after her first child and she did not get it treated. She had a suicide attempt. After her second child, she has a team of post-partum specialists that help her, including a psychiatrist, a counselor and a medical doctor. You need help, this is not something that will just go away on its on. It is related to the change in hormone levels in your brain and it is NOT your fault. If you are already prone to depression, then this is a time when it can get much worse. Please seek out help and don't feel ashamed or blame yourself. There out medical professionals that specialize in this type of depression because it is common and they can help you. You can get counseling and/or medication if you need to. The main thing is that you reach out for help and do things which will improve the quality of your life. Things will get better. Good luck and Hugs :)

Yes, get help now. And another thing... I've noticed that a lot of people who suffer from depression think about themselves an awful lot. They project their own negative emotions onto other people, which makes them feel like the world is against them. You need to work with your doctors on yourself, but when you're alone, try not to think about how much you need or how much your life sucks. Make a list every morning of 3-5 things you could do to improve your life, and focus on making something happen that is positive. The more you practice being positive, the easier it will be when you've gotten through the post-partum. Good luck!

I just wanted to comment more on this subject as I suffer from long term depression and have studied it fairly extensively in the process of doing my psychology degree. Hmmm judging from your comments
notinthemood, I would suspect that you have never suffered from a severe or long term form of depression. It is a common misconception that people who are depressed are selfish and mostly think only of themselves. Depression is like falling into a black hole over which you have no control. Not every person that is depressed thinks that the world is against them. Sometimes it is just an effort to wake up in the morning and do normal things that other people have no problem dealing with. Depression, along with other mood disorders can be hereditary, meaning that when close family members suffer from it, that individual (especially for a woman), has a higher percentage of chance of having it. Low levels of thyroid after giving birth can sometimes account for post partum depression.
Many types of depression and especially Post partum depression are not directly within the individuals control. When the depression is related to hormonal imbalances and/or is neurophysiological (as is the case with post partum), the individual has very little control over their mood. Sometimes mild to moderate depression can be partially within the individuals control, although the majority of people with severe or long term depression (including post partum and bipolar), can only make the changes needed with the help of a professional. It is very easy to tell someone who is depressed to try to focus on the positive, etc.. The reality is that if it were that easy to treat depression, then such a large percentage of people and particularly women would not continue to suffer from it, even after seeking treatment. Universally, women and girls suffer from depression and anxiety at a rate of 2 women to every 1 man. Part of the reason for this is related to hormone differences in females (although obviously there are many other reasons as well). Some of the periods of time in which women are more vulnerable to depression for hormonal reasons include puberty, during and after pregnancy, perimenopause and before periods.

There is a type of therapy called Cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT) which helps people to change their negative thought patterns and replace them with more functional and realistic thinking. I agree that it is a great idea to focus on the positive things in life, but this is not easily done by most people who are already in the depths of severe depression. Op I hope that you seek the help of a professional and please get your thyroid levels checked. A good website:

http://www.womenshealth.gov/faq/depression-pregnancy.cfm

notinthemotherhood your comment and "observation" about people who are suffering for depression sounds like you are very misinformed and it wasn't in good taste. sometimes people suffering with depression feel so incredibly bad about themselves, they start to believe they are a burden to their family and/or the people around them. also it usually isn't something they are doing on purpose or even knowingly. if someone suffering from depression is being so negative, it isn't their fault or something they want to be doing so that is way going to see a professional is key.

I had a friend who got depressed like that right after she had her baby. She was about 31 or 32 and had everything going for her, but felt depressed. She confessed just a little to me and to her doctor and the doctor gave her a light antidepressant just for about a year. Nothing to be ashamed of at all. She took it and it worked just fine and then later maybe after about a year she stopped taking it. It really helped her. So many women go through it it's no big deal or anything to be embarrassed about. Doctors are used to hearing it and will not be surprised one bit if you tell them. They've seen and heard everything believe me. She had only a $10 copay on the drug which she picked up at a local pharmacy and it was problem solved.

I agree with the ladies here. It sounds like post-partum depression, therefore call your doctor as soon as possible and go from there. And be completely honest with him about how you feel and what you're thinking.