When I first started dating my boyfriend, porn bothered me a lot. The idea of him watching porn made me really upset. I told him this, and he asked if I would like him to stop watching porn. He said he would do it not because he agrees with me, but because he didn't want to do anything that he knew upsets me.

Throughout the next few months, he tells me that sometimes he leaks semen throughout the day, and gets hard ons for no reason. In no way does he hint that he thinks this is my fault. Either way, after a while, I told him I realize how silly I had been, agreeing that he should stop watching porn for me. I said that if porn bothered me, I should stay away from it, not having HIM stay away from it. We agree that this porn issue should not be a problem, and thus he is free to watch porn whenever he likes (like he should be).

Now 3 years have gone by. In my defense, when the above happened, I was 16-17 years old. I have long since gotten over this porn issue. I watch it sometimes too. I casually suggest that my bf and I watch porn together because I think it would be fun, and he agreed.

It turned out to be really awkward for both of us, each awkwardly asking what the other person wanted to watch, long silences while the porn was playing, not aroused at all, and ending with us shutting off the porn.

We go to bed and hug, and after the awkwardness fades away, he admits to me that because he knows porn used to bother me, it's hard for him to enjoy porn with me. He says that it might have ruined the fun of us watching porn together permanently. I explain to him that I was younger back then and I don't feel the same way anymore, but it doesn't seem to help.

I really want us to have the fun of watching porn together, but I don't know if it's a good idea. It was REALLY not enjoyable at ALL. Should I try again? Or just leave it because of what happened in the past?