Ok here is my situation. I have been with my boyfriend for a year now and am madly in love with him. It is a long distance relationship but I see him two sometimes three times a month, and get to spend lots of time with him. In my heart I feel like he is the person I was meant to spend the rest of my life with, and I just cannot see my life without him it it.

Things in his personal life have been very hard lately. His father is terminally ill, and he helps care for him on a daily basis which definetely takes its toll on him. On top of this, he himself has become ill, and the doctors are not sure what is wrong with him, the symptoms seen to resemble something like Chronic Fatigue, but they have yet to give him a diagnosis. He has been to the doctor at least 5 times and finally got referred to a specialist who now wants him to spend the day at the hospital to undergo a procedure to check his stomach that would involve a local anesthesia, but was told that he would be able to leave the hospital that day and it was just a procedure to make sure everything was ok. I know he is very stressed out since he has not been feeling well or had much energy for the past few months and is worried about spending the day in the hospital.

I havent been able to see him in a full month and miss him like crazy and want to be there for him. I told him I want to come see him (I know he is not up for traveling to see me) and he told me not to come because he needs space and he is too stressed out to worry about me being there visiting. I never do anything to stress him out or demand anything when I am there, in fact I take care of him and his family and help out and do all the cooking and things like that to make it easier also because I enjoy being able to take care of him.

He says he just can't see me right now, it is too much stress. But how can you not want to see the person you are supposedly in love with who just wants to be there for you, who misses you like crazy and would do anything just to give you a hug?

I was so upset about this, and then I found out something else. He use to have a myspace page and it was innocent but he had friends on there who were girls who would leave comments on his page. They were innocent comments but I was not crazy about this whole myspace page to say the least. Still, he never gave me any reason to distrust him so I let it go because I do not want to tell him what to do or who to talk to. So then he decides to delete the page. He says he knows I dont like it and the whole thing is stupid anyway. This was months ago. Then today after our conversation about needing space I decide to just look at myspace and type his email address in...Wouldnt you know it, he remade the page behind my back and added back all those girls as friends. I confronted him about it and he lied to me for an hour saying the account must have reactivated itself. I knew this was a lie and he finally admitted to me that he lied and when I asked why his reason was that he knew I would be upset about it so he didnt tell me. He says he would never cheat on me and that I am blowing this whole thing out of proportion, but the fact remains that he did something behind my back and then lied about it when I confronted him, even if it was innocent.

After all of this he still is saying he is in love with me, but with everything going on in his life he just needs space but still wants me to be his girlfriend and to just give him time. I WAS coming to terms with his request and trying to support him and see it from his point of view, but now after this lie am I just being stupid to even think about being with him?

Is it fair for me to be to never be able to see him except when he is ready? I can only see him when he decides he isnt too stressed out this week or this month? I love him with all of my being and am just heartbroken over this lie and not being able to go see him. The lie bothers me so much I just boil with anger just thinking about it. I do believe him when he says it was innocent, I saw the comments on his page and they were nothing bad, but then why did he go behind my back and remake this page and then lie when I confronted him?

One last thing, I have problems in my life too, but I know that I love this man and am in a serious relationship and would NEVER lie under any circumstance. Of course I want to see him despite everything going on in my life, so why cant he extend the same to me? I feel like everyone has problems but you shouldnt use that as an excuse to push someone away. If thats the case and he cant deal with a relationship at this moment in time I would understand, but he is saying he DOES want a relationship but just needs time right now. Please help, I am so torn over this and am just sick when I think of my life without him in it and the state of limbo I am in right now.


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