I am the sort of person who is better with a few close friends. I don't need or really thrive on having a huge number of people around me. I have always had at least one close friend and few good friends throughout the various stages of life but now i find myself friendless in a way i have never been before.

When i first moved to SF I didn't know a single person but I was going to school for a 2nd degree so i was around people and gained some acquaintance-level friends but i never truly clicked with anyone. During that time i could use the excuse that i was too busy with homework, my internship and squeezing in workouts to possibly have a social life. But even I know it was just any excuse. I did start dating by joining match.com and after awhile i met my boyfriend which opened up my social life but i was all through him and his friends. After graduation all of my own semi-friends from school went their separate directions, including me. I moved to the East Bay to live with my bf and also got a job out there so any city-aqaintneces i had have since disintegrated. Now, I find myself in an even worse situation friend-wise. I have none; I spend all my free time with my bf because i have none, but i have none because i spend all my time with him or doing things by myself.

I have work-friends but none who i do anything with outside of work, in part because they still live in the city. I have one close work-friend and we relate on a personal level but we rarely do anything outside of work. She has a lot of friends and she has talked about feeling pulled in every direction so I don't want to be yet another person pulling on her.

I am usually ok with not having close friends nearby as i keep myself pretty busy on my won. While I still have friends in other cities from my past, I rarely see them in person and it's just not the same as having friends locally. I do get lonely at times or feel like i have no one to talk to and the worst part is that my bf seems to think my lack of friends is a problem. He brings it up every time we argue about something. He thinks that because I don't "deal" with anyone I don't know how to relate to people and have good relationships. This always stabs me right in the heart and i get defensive and feel like he is trying to make me feel like somethings is wrong with me. And of course i have to wonder, is there something wrong with me? I have read statistics that say a lot of women don't have a close friend. But I find that a bit hard to believe because I feel like everyone i meet already has an established group and they don't need any more friends. Not that they are being close-minded but it takes a big effort to start new friendships and with people's busy schedules I just don't think it's a priority if you already have the friends you need.

So how can i meet new friends? (And please don't say join volunteer groups or classes... ). I am not super out-going so i guess i just don't know how to reach out to people and start a friendship. I have always been very self-sufficient... probably overly so.

Thanks for your help!


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