I am 100% completely in love with my current boyfriend. we have been together for almost 2 years and through this time we have both been through a lot of trials and tribulations and how crazy things have been and the situations that have come about somehow we're still here together but obviously are still working on a lot of issues. Okay let me first tell u how we got together... WE both went to same high school but never really communicated. On my 21st birthday i invited one our now OLD mutual friends to my birthday and asked him to invite my current boyfriend. We all went out to the club with one of my girl friends. while in the club i dont know what it was but i really was feeling him and i didnt even have any liquor in my system. lol. Anyway i think a couple of days later we were on the phone somehow he was drunk and he ws telling me how he was feeling me and how he like me in high school. To me this was all talk. Long story short.. Okay our OLD mutual friend Robert had a thing for me in high school and apparently had told my boyfriend that we were together at one time. Now for a long time i never understood why my boyfriend would start a relationship with me if one of his friends told him we were together. come to find out Robert also lied about having SEX with me... and he is clearly not my type. any way so these issues came about in our relationship, also my ex boyfriend has been a major issue as well, he popped up at my place one day and i didnt let my boyfriend know about until a couple of days later because our anniversary was coming up and i just wanted to enjoy our time together. TRUE i shouldve told him asap. FYI ( i dont have any feelings for my ex at all none what so ever we were still good friends and he just showed up and let me know that he still wanted to be with me) so thats one issue. Another thing we seperated for a little while and i had a old guy friend come by the house who i had only seen twice before and just kept phone communication with and i let my boyfriend know about when we got back together and told him that the guy gave me a small shoulder massage. this guy is a nobody. Again i only have eyes for my man. Now this is my first real relationship and im about to be 23 next month and from my past experiences with man i know that i am truly in love with this guy. I have a son also who is not biologically his son but from day one he took on that responsibility and has never really mentioned anything about my "sperm donor" i'll call him. my issues with him we're and are currently arising again was him spending all his time with his friends which now he realized that they weren't really his friends and ended up stealing his things from his apartment, him not being sensitive to my needs and emotions when im crying and down, not trying always wanting to give up on the relationship, but i feel when u love someone or in love you do what it takes to make it work. The biggest thing for me i can say just happened about a month ago. During one of our break ups he started talking to this girl in a matter or days or a week after going out one night with his friends. i had his password to his voicemail which he gave me months back and never thought to use it because before then i truly trusted him. there was this girl always leaving him messages on his voicemail. (JUST TYPING THIS IS BRINGING ME TO TEARS) this went on for a while he told me about her over a text message basically saying i have something to tell u. I've been disrespecting and living a double life. Now u would think after confessing this he would stop because he begged me to stay by his side and i did. a couple of weeks later i just out the blue woke up out my sleep 2 in morning to call him to tell him that i love him and it goes to voicemail so i check it. This girl says " I was just calling u to tell u that I LOVE YOU" WTF! I was so devestated I had never felt so much pain in my life. that is what we told eachother. how can he give that to someone else. So we had this huge blow up about the next day we were out together looking for me a new apartment and one word was said that led to another and i mentioned what i had heard the night before and i jumped out the car while we were at a red light and just started walking because he was lying to my face. So he pulled off left came back and i guess when he finally realized i really knew the situation we got into a tussle because he was trying to calm me down and trying to get me in the car saying baby im sorry i f*cked up i love u please dont do this i love im this im that. obviously again i stayed. Why do i stay? at the end of everything i ended chasing behind him because he took off down the road. Everytime something happens i feel he makes me feel quilty about it and about the situation to where im always trying to make things better. Why is that? IS he the one for me? HE does a lot for me financially... pay my rent, sons child care, he bought me a car which was stolen, got me a computer, paid for my moving cost, just a lot financially but hes not really giving me what i need as my partner and companion. I know this is a lot i just need a little feed back. Im scared he's going to hurt me by leaving me and i cant take that.  (o and his mom adores me and our son and really wants our relationship to last. she sees a good person in me i just had a broken past and a broken heart and a lot of let downs)