Or if I should bring it up at all. A few months ago my boyfriend's mother was diagnosed with breast cancer and needless to say it's taken a toll on us both emotionally. She gets plenty of support from family and friends, but for years she's been a single mom and him an only child. He's really the only one she has. I always knew this, and I absolutely don't mind. I wouldn't share him with any other woman. So, I just feel like a total b*tch every time I even think about wanting sex at a time like this because while I have been very supportive of him and his mother and always make sure her health is top priority, I just can't stop the urge. I wish I could tell my hormones to be quiet but my body won't stop calling out to him. I'm trying my hardest not to feel inadequate or unattractive because I know it has nothing to do with me; we used to have amazing sex, and a lot of it. There are some days I'll try to subtly initiate something or try to turn him on but no dice. I feel even lower. Some days I get angry at him, which I know is extremely unfair as he doesn't need more stress on his plate, so I never do anything about it. So far I've done a great job of concealing it but, as a result, I have been like a ticking timebomb.
I just don't know how to go about it. It's reached the point where even masturbating doesn't help anymore because it's become extremely difficult to even imagine him turned on, and porn is just utterly ridiculous haha. 
It worked for about a week but it's slowly turned into unintentional comedy for me; how can guys watch so much of it?! I don't know, maybe I need to look for better sites, but sometimes I just look at myself and laugh. I feel so low. I only get like this every few weeks or so (that time of the month?) because otherwise I am absolutely fine with not having sex. But when the mood strikes I'm just frustrated out of my mind. I'm scared because recently thoughts of guys from my past have come creeping in and I absolutely will not cheat on him but I am in over my head. I never thought sex was so important until now. Should I just douse myself in cold water and sit out my hormonal weeks? Apart from his mom's condition he also has school and work; he's really got a lot on his plate. I feel so selfish. I don't know what to do.
Either way, thank you for hearing me out.
Feeling sexually deprived and not sure how to bring it up with my boyfriend
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I hope you realize that you obviously are not selfish and are just saying that in jest. You must already know that it is not selfish to have needs in a relationship, or to want your needs met in your relationship. I don't think it is healthy to conceal your feelings like that. I realize that you don't want to put more pressure on him, but a healthy relationship involves communicating your needs to your partner. You need to tell him what you need from him. I don't think that you have any reason to be ashamed for having natural desires. You just have to be understanding that he is obviously really stressed right now and sex may be the last thing on his mind. That doesn't mean that you don't have the right to express how you feel. Just do it in a really kind way which boosts his ego. For example, "I am so attracted to you and I love you so much, I miss making love to you." I would also suggest that you get some erotic novels or stories to read and a really good vibrator. The rabbit is a good one because it has a clit stimulater and multiple speeds. Be sure to get a good natural lube. Then spend some time satisfying yourself, you don't have to think about him, you could fantasize about different men or scenarios. How about Edward Cullen, or Matthew McCounaghy, etc...This way you will not feel frustrated or that you are depending entirely on him to satisfy you. Good luck and have fun.
1Sex is part of a healthy relationship. I completely understand your frustration. You are a living, breathing human being and you need to have sex, plain and simple as that!
This issue has gone on much longer than necessary. Sit him down and talk to him about it. Tell him that having sex alleviates stress and would be good for the both of you! Keep the conversation light and fun, and not as though you are scolding him.
I know his mom has health issues but he's not with her 24-hours a day, is he? There must be time during the evening when he's just watching tv when he could instead be having sex with you.
Good luck!
2I think you do need to have a talk with him. A nice, casual talk... very pleasant, but honest. Ask him what he needs to get into the mood again. Tell him you miss the intimacy. Being close to him. Hopefully he's not so wrapped up in it all that he can't sympathize with you and agree to put the worry out of his head for a couple of hours!
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