Before you read this, I want you all to realize that I totally understand that I am completely feeling sorry for myself and that I need to look at the brighter side of things, but right now...to me, this is he end of the world.

I started to like this guy, that I never was really attracted to before. I never thought he was cute, until now. He's a great person, an all around good guy. My roommate has known him longer than me, and she is constantly telling me what a "great catch" he is. I have a lot of fun with him, when he can make the time for me.

It seems as if all he has time for is his friends. He is constantly calling me, constantly keeping in touch...so I know he is interested. He always TRIES to hang out with me....always makes the effort...but NEVER follows through. I feel like he always blows me off. I know its easy for you all to say, "forget about him and move on." well, when you're in the situation, it's a lot harder to do just that. I've honestly fallen for the guy. He is in that phase in his life where he can't miss a single second of "guy time" with his friends. I even mentioned it to him the other day (after he decided to go to the bar with his friends instead of hang out with me)...I said " I just feel like you always want to hang out with your friends instead of me" and what he said back to me was a shocker...he replied.." What are you my girlfriend or something." and then casually laughed...later that night, he texted me and said, "I suck, we should have hung out." He does this all the time, he will go with his friends and then text me while he is with them saying, "I'm sorry, I'm an *sshole...you probably hate me" Why does he call me every day if he isn't interested. Why does he continually try to hang out if he doesn't like me? This is why I'm convinced that he DOES like me, but just is taking his time. The whole thing has got me tore up. I get very nervous and ancy when he doesn't call when I think he will. I get angry with my family, unintentionally. I'm letting it control my emotions, and it's terrible. It's out of my control. I don't know what to do. I'm not ready to forget about him just yet though, because it is the summer time and it is hard to start something when you dont see someone all the time. (He lives in the city, I live an hour away). I am willing to wait until he is ready, but I don't want him to know that he is in control of the situation ...he knows that I don't really do much and I feel like he knows I would drop everything just to hang out with him. But remember, he is NOT blowing me off, if he is calling me the next day...he's not one of those typical assholes that just never calls again, that's not the case. And keep in mind that if you just say, "move on" that's not helping me, because that's not what I want to do.


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