I have issues with self esteem. I'm not shy, but my self consciousness is crippling. It causes me to over analyze everything I say. There a few people I'm really open with, but for the most part, I'm closed off to everyone around me. I try so hard to open up to people but then there's that stupid voice in the back of my head that says, "stop it. You look like an idiot." and so I stop. And trust me, I've tried so hard to ignore that voice.
It hasn't always been like this, maybe the past five or six years, around the time I was 15. I used to be so bubbly and talkative and silly and now I'm quiet and overly critical. I'm getting sick of this. I miss the old me. Any suggestions? This thing is ruining my life!