Ok so I know how the title makes this sound, like either a romantic story or a childish crush, but its not. I've known my cousin since i was 2 and he was 4, so there is no problem with the age difference since its only two years. the problem lies that before I turned 13 i used to consider him and the other two guy cousins in our age group like a bunch of big brothers and nothing more. But then one night, i was 13 and he was 15, he....kissed me. not a little kid kiss either, it was really passionate. and i have been kissed before and i even had a boyfriend at the time, but i had never felt like this before. our relationship is still going and when others ask i always say that no IMO not seeing someone, that i like someone and am not interested in a relationship with anyone else. Now i am 15 and he is about to turn 17 and i feel more confused than i did when this whole thing started. No body knows about us, but I'm not sure if there is an us....maybe he just wants a sexual relationship. so far we've gotten pretty far, but not all the way. he's touched me in private places more than once (with my consent, just in case) and I've touched him. he's the only guy Ive gone this far with, but its long distance. he lives in a country in South America and i live in Florida. I don't know what to do, especially knowing that he has had many girlfriends and is considered a common playboy, but i don't like him for his looks....at least, not only. its also for his personality and we've never told each other we loved each other....but up till now Ive felt that we expressed it enough. But...i don't know if I'm right or if its just wishful thinking. i mean, maybe he just wants the aforementioned sexual relationship with me and I'm the idiot that's falling for him and making our situation more than it is....or maybe we both feel the same way. I'm not sure anymore. Can anybody help me see the light of day?