About 9 months ago my boyfriend of three years, who I lived with, broke up with me. We had talked about marriage, kids, the whole picture. He came home one day and said "I don't love you anymore and you are not enough." This has really taken a toll on my confidence. If I'm not enough for him who is to say that I will ever be enough for any man.

I never really felt bad about my nerd status or that I didn't look like a supermodel, but now I am beginning to question it. I've also received some shaky advice from friends and family. There seems to be an overwhelming consensus that me being in graduate school is unattractive to men in general. I live in a large college town where there are tons of amazingly beautiful women. I feel like it is hard to compete as being smart or a good person doesn't really get the attention that being beautiful does. It is hard to believe that I could find someone who would actually love me for me when it is so easy to upgrade in this town or anywhere for that matter.

It has also been suggested that I might have to wait for men in my age group to lower their standards. I really have no desire to be the girl someone settles for just because they couldn't catch someone better. That being said, I don't know how I expect any man to stay with me when I know better women exist.

I like who I am and don't particularly want to change just to get a man. I have been told that maybe if I dumb myself down then dating would be easier. Basically, I've been told that I cannot expect someone to date me let alone love me unless I change what is inherently me. I just don't know how to process this kind of advice. It is true that I haven't had huge success with men in the past (again, always the friend never the girlfriend), but I didn't think that meant that I had no chance at love.

I just can't seem to shake those feelings of not being enough. He did have a point, why should he stay with me when there are women out there who are better looking, more successful etc... How do I get my self esteem back and stop worrying about being enough? How do I stop worrying that he was my only chance at love and that I might end up alone?


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