I have been friends with this guy for about 5 or 6 months. He made it very clear in the beginning that he wanted to be more than friends. However, I was unsure of whether or not I could handle his baggage (he has a young child that he takes care of, is divorced, and is satisfied working in a booth at a mall). I was not fond of his lack of ambition. He has no real plans for the future. I on the other hand, am earning a Masters degree from an Ivy League institution, and I have my future planned out. After weighing the pros and cons, I told him that I would prefer to be friends. So we've been great friends. We hang out all the time, and I feel like I can tell him anything.

As you might suspect, I realized that I had feelings for him about three weeks ago. Since this realization, I've had numerous internal battles about the pros and cons of confessing my feelings and entering into a relationship. I even considered dropping all of my expectations and preferences for him. About 3 weeks ago, he met a woman in a bar, and they hit it off well. I was going to bite the bullet, and not confess my feelings. But two nights after meeting the woman, he asked me specifically about whether or not I had feelings for him. After beating around the bush, I revealed the truth. However, I did not get the response I expected. He told me that he wanted to remain friends. All of this despite only knowing this woman for 2 days! Since then he has been spending a great deal of time with this woman. He has also been playing mind games with me by discussing his feelings for me, and then ending it by asking that we remain good friends and stating that he hopes his new girlfriend does not come between us.

I really don't like the fact that he's playing these games, so I have distanced myself tremendously. We have not spoken in days. This is taking a toll on our friendship, and I value that first and foremost. But I want to be more than friends and deep down inside this is killing me. I really do have strong feelings for him. I don't know what to do.

I know some of you will think that I only want him because he is seeing someone new. However, that is not the case. I was battling these feelings 2 weeks before he met this woman. I know that this is partially my fault, and I take responsibility for that.

What should I do?


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