I've been living really far away from my ex-boyfriend who I broke up with last year, but I still have feelings for him and he says he still does for me, too. He's also said he wants to get back together in the future, but he's dating someone else right now. He says its not serious but I can't tell since I'm so far away and have never met her. Friends of mine who know her have mentioned that he's never introduced her to his parents and that he doesn't take it seriously, but its hard to be really sure what's going on since I've never seen them together. The problem is that he's been telling me he still cares about me every few months since we broke up. He says the only reason he's seeing other people is because we're so far apart, and that he can't do long distance, but it still really hurts. Also, even though he's told me he wants us to be together in the future, he won't make any concrete plans.
Our breakup was mutual, but I do regret it now. We dated for about three years and broke up a little over a year ago. While we were dating, I was taking a few semesters off from college and wasn't sure what direction I was headed in, career wise. After about two years off, I decided to go back to school. To do that, I had to move all the way across the country, and my boyfriend stayed were he was. We tried doing long distance for about a year, but it didn't work out and we split up.
In addition to the fact that we both hated long distance, we had some other issues during our relationship. We had some really good times together, but we also had quite a few disagreements. Looking back on it, I think a lot of it had to do with the fact that I didn't really have my school/work plans straight, but I'm not 100% sure that it was entirely that. Basically, I was never completely sure he was the one for me, but in hindsight, I think he really could be.
After we split up, we didn't talk for about three months, and then I got a call from him saying he wanted to get together. He was going to be visiting family near me and said he wanted to see me. He also told me he still had feelings for me. Because of our schedules, it didn't end up working out, and I also found out he was seeing someone else casually that he hadn't told me about, which was really hard to hear. A few months later he called me, and we had a great conversation, and he kept hinting again that he still hadn't gotten over me. I tried not to think too much of it, and we didn't talk again for another few months. Then he called again, out of nowhere, and told me he was going to be visiting family near where I go to school again, and that he wanted to see me. He also told me he was seeing someone else, but that it wasn't serious. I told him I wasn't interested, but after several long conversations, he told me he still loved me. When I heard that, I told him we could meet, and we spent one night together, which was really great, but also really confusing. He kissed me, and slept in my bed, but insisted that we couldn't "sleep together" (I would have, if he had wanted to, in a heartbeat). He said it was because he didn't want to hurt me. At the time, I couldn't tell whether that was it or if it was the fact that he was worried about his girlfriend, who he told me repeatedly he was not serious about.
After that, we kept talking on the phone, every day for about an hour or so, for about a month, until I realized I couldn't get involved with him emotionally if he was seeing someone else, regardless of how serious they might be. We stopped talking for another few months, then I called him a few months later. I was feeling really confused and jerked around, and I asked him why he kept getting in touch with me even though we'd broken up and he was seeing other people, and he said it was because he still loved me. We kept talking on a regular basis for about a week after that, and this time, I asked if he wanted to try and get back together. I'm graduating from college in a few months, and haven't figured out yet where I'll be moving, so it is completely plausible for us to get back together. He said he wants to get together in the future, but wouldn't make concrete plans. I can't tell if he is bored with his own relationship and just stringing me along, or he really wants something to happen with me eventually but wants someone with him in the interim. I also don't know if I should trust him, because I do feel pretty jerked around by how he's acted over the past year, and I don't know if I should be with someone who would do that to me. I'm not talking to him on a regular basis right now, since I know he wont make any type of commitment, but should I hold out hope for something in the future? When we do talk, we have the most fun and romantic conversations, and it feels like we haven't been apart a day. Of course this is a huge cliche, but I really fell like I've lost my best friend. And even though I did want to break up with him last year, I'm afraid I may have taken him for granted. I've also tried to move past it, since we don't seem to be getting anywhere, but its really hard when he keeps saying he wants to get back together. Its also just really hard because I still care about him so much.
I know this is a really complicated post, but I would love any advice or insight into the situation.

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