okay, i have been with my boyfriend for nearly two years. everything had been perfect and i was sure that he was the one for me, and he always said i was the one for him we were very much in love (i still am!). he has a very large family that i have become a part of, as my family is very broken and dysfunctional, i feel like they are my family. i am especially close with his older sister, who he is very close to also. So 5 months of the year every year he goes to work abroad skiing, making our relationship part-time long distance. The first time he went away it was very hard, but we managed to make it work which made us very strong and made us realise we were meant to be together... we spent the summer together, then it came around that he had to go again. We talked a lot about how it was going to work and how we could improve from the year before. I went to spend this xmas and new years with him, and things have gone downhill.. we had an amazing reunion and first couple of days together, then he started to act very distant. i thought it was because he was very tired and busy from work. Then last night, new years, we went out...everything was fine we were having a great time until we had an argument, then out of the blue he tells me he doesnt want to be with me anymore!

we talked for hours, and he said he'd been having doubts in the back of his mind about our relationship and my coming out for xmas and new years was his way of deciding what to do... he NEVER told me about this before he left and we talked a lot about where our relationship was going and we both wanted the same thing. we had so many plans together starting as soon as he came back home.... i feel devestated as i am very much in love with him and he turned around and said that he is not in-love with me anymore, and doesnt even fancy me anymore. i feel devestated... and lost... i'm in a foreign country, i can't speak the language, i can't get an earlier flight home and i'm here with him for another 4 days! i dont no what to do... and also i know that when i leave him i will likely not see him again.....which i cant BEAR... as we were supposed to go travelling together in the summer and follow the snow until we found somewhere to start our life together. i feel like ive been left with nothing. our future together is gone. and ive also lost a family as i was part of his. i feel so empty and alone.... how can i ever get over him?... and how can i survive these next 4 days with him knowing that he doesnt love me?..... his family are here for the next couple of days and i can't bear them knowing just yet, i'm still trying to deal with it... i dont know how i'm going to face them...i kind of want to pretend everythings okay for the next 4 days then when i leave that will be the end... is this childish? i dont know what to do!!!?? please help


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