My boyfriend and I have had a very strange relationship from the beginning. We met while I was on vacation and maintained an amazing long-distance relationship for 6 months and then I moved away even further for another 6 months, which is when we started to have problems and drifted apart, yet remained together. After a year we decided to try to live together, our problems have come to an ugly head.

During the time I was away, right before I moved to live with him, I cheated on him. After a few months I finally told him and we have both been trying to work things out. I feel like I did it out of indecisiveness and fear of both commitment and failure with my BF, and immediately regretted it. He feels like I did it out of a lack of interest in him and that I would do it again. Since we began to have serious problems because of my cheating, he has been around a girl a few times (mostly when I have been out of town) and has literally only slept with her, yet it has caused immense jealousy in me. I feel wrong for feeling jealous after what I did, yet I also feel like he has pushed her in my face to purposely make me jealous (he has admitted to this too).

It is now time for me to move again and we have been in the middle of our dilemma for a few months now. We no longer live together, and he wants me to move away as soon as possible, yet we still see each other every day and have sex together and he invites me to his family events as well.

Should we stop seeing each other immediately to begin the healing process in both of us, or should we enjoy the last month we have together? We both love each other very much still and feel that there is a possibility of recuperating our trust over time. What is necessary for both of us to begin to heal and how can we do it together?