Let me preface this by by saying that since I've became sexually active, I've always had a voracious sexual appetite. As a result, my list of sexual partners isn't short, I'll admit, and I've always been very open minded in bed. Currently, my boyfriend and I have been dating for nearly two years, and we've been very happy nearly the entire time, I've thought about us in the long run quite often. Over the past two years, however, I've noticed that we've had sex less and less, especially now that we've been living together. Not only that, but the sex we do have has been very...vanilla. Straight missionary (anything else his hips begin to hurt or I'm too short or something which has never seemed to be an issue with any prior partner of mine) is the routine now, not that it was much more adventurous in the beginning. Once we start making out and getting hot, he goes to straight to the point sex. I haven't even had a real orgasm with him yet. A few times I've been close but once I start to whimper he'll stop and ask if something's wrong which kills it.

How have I made it two years as someone with a strong sexual need? I love him. He makes me happy and we get along perfectly. I chalked up the lack of sex to the fact that we're out of school now and busy working and just settling into a couple-y routine or something and was pretty content (lets just say masturbation is a frequent activity).

The other night however, I had a dream in which one ex-boyfriend and an old friend-with-benefits were present. Nothing sexual, but it got me wondering what all my old boyfriends and flings are up to nowadays. That then led to reminiscing about all the really great sex I had with them and realizing I haven't been as satisfied as I thought I was in my current relationship. The next night, I initiated foreplay and sex to prove it wasn't as bad as it seemed and then it was just really lackluster. My boyfriend acts very cute with me all the time, and it seems to have crossed over into sex and the cutesiness in bed was a real turn off plus, once he was in, he didn't stay hard for long which didn't help either. Now, I don't know about anyone else, but I don't want cute sex, I want hot, passionate, make me gasp, sweaty sex. Sadly, I didn't even break a sweat.

Now the question to myself is, how long can I stay with someone if I'm not totally satisfied and he thinks things are fine? My mind's been wandering constantly now to other guys and how lusty I've been, and the last thing I want to do is to do something I'll regret. I don't want to cheat nor do I want to break up and subsequently hurt him but I don't want to constantly doubt my own happiness either.

Take this as one long run-on filled rant if you will, but I'm totally confused as to what to do (not to mention really horny). Help?!