Only 4 days ago I broke up with my boyfriend of over 7 months...well ex now. At the time I didn't know how to but I eventually got the nerve to tell him. He completely broke down and wouldn't stop crying. He told me not to do this to him and kept on insisting we should just try it out again.

So here's the thing he's a year younger then me and I'm leaving to college this year while he'll stay behind in high school. Everytime I would mention college he would get upset because he doesn't want me to leave his side ever. He would always say that I would eventually forget him or that I might get tempted to do something with another guy at some college party.

Then there's the fact that he can get too clingy sometimes. I'll tell him that I'm going to hang out with my friends and he'd get upset because he wanted to hangout with me. He'd be at my house everyday till late. When I'm hanging out with my friends he'd continously keep calling me to see what I was doing. Everytime I'd say something about it he'd tell me that he was afraid to lose him. The thing is that all of these actions is what really led me to leaving him.

Well maybe that's not all of it. I guess I just don't feel the same way anymore. I don't get those butterflies I used to when he'd kiss me. I wouldn't get so excited about hanging out because well it was like a daily thing for me. I never got the chance to actually miss him.

Now that we're not together I'll still talk to him on the phone and we'll walk to school together sometimes and I'm completely fine with just being friends with him except he isn't. He continues to cry to me and tell me he loves me and to give it another shot. He tells me he's changed and he won't act the same anymore. He mopes during school and my friends tell me he gets all sentimental. I feel so guilty because I would tell him I love him and I would go along with what he'd say about us being together. I guess I just felt like I loved him and like that's what I wanted. Too late have I come too realize it's not.

I feel even worse because that same day I broke up with him he ended up going to the hospital from chest pains. It ends up being that he has a punctured lung and he might have to get surgery. Just yesterday he also broke down telling me what he'd been through when he was a kid. Let me just say that he hasn't had the greatest parents.

He's asked to take me out to dinner this Friday and I said ok. So the whole break-up thing is probably gonna be mentioned and he's probably gonna ask me to take him back. I really care for him and I don't want to hurt him but I don't think that's what I want anymore. He's such a great guy and extremely sweet, I couldn't possibly ask for more. I feel like he doesn't deserve to go through this especially because he really is so much in love with me. I don't know what to do. I don't even know if it's been a good idea to continue talking to him as friends. Please help.