I go to college with this guy. We have been friends since the beginning of the school year but we both we were with other people at the time and never considered each other potential partners. I always thought he was attractive though. My ex boyfriend broke up with me over winter break (this January) and his girlfriend broke up with him 4 days before Valentines Day. On Valentine's Day at a party we both got drunk and we ended up kissing and doing some other things. We didn't have sex though. I didn't think much of it until our friends started telling me that he had feelings for me and that he's really excited about me and thinks I'm a great girl. One of my friends asked him if I was a rebound and he said "no, she means more than that, it's nothing like that." I knew I had to give him some time and space and I didn't want to push myself on him at all. I'm friends with all his roommates and would hang out with them all playing video games and just being a friend with him, not kissing or anything like that. He would come to my math class to just hang out with me and told me he wanted to hang out with me soon. A week after Valentine's Day another party came and we both got very intoxicated but he was acting strangely. Now I should clarify something, I didn't start developing feelings for him until his friends starting telling me he shared them. I never thought me and this guy would ever happen, I didn't think he'd be interested so I didnt let Valentine's day go to my head until his friends starting giving me information. So anyway at the second party the whole night went by with us being distant and when bed time came we layed in bed and I told him that I felt stupid. He asked why and I said because I like you and I don't know what you're thinking. And he told me don't worry and that I'm not dumb. We had sex that night. I'm the only person he's been with outside of his ex girlfriend. I left that morning while he was sleeping and told his roommates to tell him class was cancelled because of the snow and that I left so he could sleep comfortably. The truth is I realized I'm really starting to like him and I don't want to act like a slut. This weekend we both went home from school and we haven't really spoken. We talked online for a bit and he brought up his ex girlfriend and then told me she had instant messaged him and he stopped talking to me since that point and then signed off. I know he needs time, but every significant action in our relationship was because of him, the kissing, the hanging out, the sex, so I haven't been pushing or rushing him at all. I'm just very afraid of getting hurt and I don't know what to do. On top of that, this weekend at home my ex boyfriend stopped by and we hung out for a little over an hour. We had sex. He told me he's missed me and has been trying to change to be with me again and that he'll always love me and I'm the ideal girl for him. He's met and been with others but I'm the one that feels right. I don't know what to do. Do I give up on my friend, will it ever really work out? Or do I go back to my ex? I don't want to be alone.

PS: i'm sorry this is so long


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